Nobody Knew –

My face always wearing a smile – not a frown.

But the walls I had built around me were finally starting to crumble down.

Nobody Knew –

How sad, tired, and scared I was each night and day – pretending I’m still looking for that open door.

When all I really wanted was to disappear in a peaceful sleep and not be here anymore.

Nobody Knew –

I didn’t talk or let anyone in – too afraid to show my “human” side,

Out of fear that no one would stay with me on this never-ending invisible health condition ride.

Nobody Knew –

The pain, anxiety, and fear I felt – to me they symbolized weakness, and people only saw me as ‘STRONG’.

After hitting ‘Rock Bottom’ I slowly began to wake up and realize – I WAS WRONG.

Nobody Knew –

I wrote to you.

A memory from my past, always so solid, strong and true.

Nobody Knew –

You were living a brand new life, exciting and free,

But despite being away, you wrote back to me.

Nobody Knew –

But you came through.

You called me when you said you were going to.

Nobody Knew –

You made me laugh, smile and remember I have so much to live for,

So much love to give, so many who love me and so many whom I cherish and adore.

Nobody Knew –

How much you were there for me when I needed someone on my saddest day or darkest night.

You were my savior, a lucky star shining down on me with all your strength and beautiful light.

Nobody Knew, Nobody Knew…

Nobody Knew, Except for you.

~ Shannon Little ©

August 5, 2010